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“I’m not smart enough.”

“I don’t have good ideas.”

“I need to think harder.”

“I’m such an airhead!”

If you catch yourself saying stuff like this, you’re not alone.

Loads of us have these limiting perceptions of ourselves, even though they’re disempowering and fall into the category of ‘negative self talk.’

We learned to believe this crap about ourselves over time, because our culture tends to reward people who can ‘think on their feet,’ ask clarifying questions on the spot, process information quickly and share their ideas without hesitation.

Conversely, our culture tends to shame those of us who need more time to process, who are soaking it all in, or who aren’t so quick to articulate an idea.

(*Even though our heads are filled with ideas–so many we can’t seem to wrangle them all or put them into any kind of meaningful order without some serious effort.)

We need this extra time to process because we are literally absorbing and amplifying everyone else’s thoughts, ideas, and questions, so it gets confusing & overwhelming inside our brains! This is quantum energy mechanics at work.

B) Check your Human Design chart to see what the very-top triangle on it looks like.

I’ll bet it’s white, or blank/not colored in, if you can relate to what I’m saying here.

This is the Head Center, a.k.a The Crown. It’s the place in our bodies where we process the energy for imagination, awe, wonder, possibilities, thoughts & ideas. Classic Pineal Gland stuff.

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If yours is open/white/blank/”Undefined,” no, you’re not an airhead!!!

You are quite literally open to new ideas, and you quite literally can read others’ thoughts.

Mine is entirely open, no numbers lit up. And, my stars, have I been called a ditz in the past.

I was also tested for Attention Deficit Disorder in my youth, because every kid in the late 80’s was being tested for it, because it was all the rage in adolescent development.

Nowadays, ADD seems to be all the rage in women’s mid-life health circles, and every third woman I meet is declaring herself officially diagnosed. [I believe today’s ADD craze is just a dressed-up, modern patriarchy wielding an upgraded attempt to keep women conditioned and disempowered. So that we self-medicate, because our culture fucking loves to reward big pharma, and so that we stop speaking out about reclaiming our sovereignty in this new era of feminine sisterhood power.

But I’m no doctor, so who am I to speculate?

I digress.

If your Head Center is open or white also, you and I are hearing and internalizing other people’s thoughts–as many other people’s as are present in a room.

That means, in crowded places, we’re taking on A LOT of other folks’ internal chatter!

No wonder we can become confused and distracted AF.

Pro Tip: The ideas that are right for us are those that come directly from Divine Intelligence — those thoughts that arrive when we’re in peaceful solitude, engaging in quiet contemplation, free from others’ influences. When we’re out in nature, while we’re free-writing in our journals or taking a shower. This is why it’s so helpful to have some kind of mediation practice…

Fixed, Reliable Access to Thoughts & Ideas

If your Head Center is colored in/darkened, however, it means you’re ‘Defined’ in this area, and so this topic is less an issue for you.

However, you’ve likely experienced a whole different kind of conditioning here, because you’ve probably been ridiculed at points for sharing too many of your ideas, having too many questions, expressing too much doubt or suspicion, blurting out your thoughts without consideration first in order to rid yourself of the immense pressure in your Head to think-think-think-haaaard!]

As with all Defined Centers, these are be the places where we can be called “too much” for some people.

With a Defined Head, you’re broadcasting your ideas for the rest of us to receive, and you have the luxury of being able to rely on a fixed way of thinking.

Questions and ideas come to you from within yourself, and probably fairly easily.

An Empowering Reframe

For those with Undefined or Open Heads, if you’ve ever felt inadequate for not being able to think on your feet, consider reframing that negative self-talk and, instead, looking at yourself from a more empowered place.

This is your opportunity to do some detoxing of those self-shaming beliefs, and to begin healing the wounds you likely suffered around experiences like:

-not having the answer when called upon in class

-feeling overwhelmed or shutting down in a meeting where everyone’s brainstorming

-becoming confused by directions and taking the ‘wrong’ step

-getting laughed at/yelled at for asking a ‘dumb’ question

If this kind of thing has happened to you and, consequently, you developed a view of yourself that included the word ‘airhead,’ ‘scatterbrain,’ ‘ditz,’ or ‘blonde’ (in that derogatory kind of way), it’s time to reclaim the immense power of your Open Crown and call yourself what you actually are, instead:

Imaginative

Psychic

Curious

Receptive

[The image at the top of this post shows where the Head/Crown is located and some self-talk indicators of both the highest vibration, self-actualized way we can possibly use our Open/Undefined Head Centers, as well as the lower vibration, shadow-state way we can operate.

Where do you fall on that spectrum?]

If you’d like to do some detoxing and de-conditioning around the wounds you’ve experienced to your Crown Center, I offer my 1:1 clients a whole bunch of exercises, reflections, affirmations and journal prompts that focus on this topic. Call or text me for a reading at (US) 412-867-0487.

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{Bonus Vocab for the info-gatherers:}

“Open” – no numbers lit up; an Energy Center that’s entirely white/blank; highly prone to conditioning, absorbing and amplifying others’ energy

“Undefined” – at least one number lit up but the Center is still blank/white; prone to conditioning but has some occasional access to the energy theme of that Center

“Defined” – an Energy Center that’s colored in; fixed, consistent, & reliable energy that’s being broadcast